Auld Lang Syne

“Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.” Carrie Bradshaw, Sex and the City.

One of my all time favorite TV Series is Sex and the City (SATC).  It’s the ultimate show about 4 women trying to navigate careers, love and family with the core focus on their friendship with each other, all under the bright lights of New York City.

Carrie is the artistic, quirky writer.  Miranda is the judgmental, intelligent lawyer.  Samantha is the overtly sexual, confident PR executive.  Charlotte is the prissy, uptight Park Avenue Art Gallery manager.  Four seemingly different women.  As a viewer, you wonder how they are all friends.  But, as you watch the show, it becomes apparent.  There are 4 different, and unique women bonded by a lifetime of heartbreak, secrets and love.  And all women watching the series can see themselves in one, or all of these characters on some level.

SATC became a phenomenon with women because it was a show that we could all relate to-  at least one of the story lines each Sunday would have you nodding in agreement or laughing remembering when something just like that happened to you.  It’s a show that bonds women.  To this day, I still find myself quoting the gals of SATC at the appropriate time in a conversation, or putting on my DVD set of the series and watching when I need a good laugh.

SATC has delivered such thoughtful lines introspections:

  • “No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friends.”
  • “The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them, and others you don’t. But, in the end, they’re the people you always come home to. Sometimes it’s the family you’re born into and sometimes it’s the one you make for yourself.”
  • “The universe may not always play fair, but at least it’s got a hell of a sense of humor.
  • “The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you that you love, well, that’s just fabulous.”

Or some absolutely laugh out loud doosies:

  • “Men cheat for the same reason that dogs lick their balls… because they can.”
  • “Soulmates only exist in the Hallmark aisle at Duane Reid Drugs.”
  • “I like my money where I can see it, hanging in my closet.”
  • “Balls are to men what purses are to women. It’s just a little bag, but we’d feel naked in public without it.”
  • “People go to casinos for the same reason they go on blind dates – hoping to hit the jackpot. But mostly, you just wind up broke or alone in a bar.”

Each episode has 4 sub-plots that are shown throughout the 30 minutes.  There is always melodrama surrounding a new boyfriend, issues at work, and conflict between one of the show’s main characters. However, the best parts of the episode is always the scene where the 4 best friends are sitting at the diner having brunch.  It’s the time when they get to share their innermost anxieties, fears and happiness.  There is always something said that’s inappropriately funny, or condescendingly accurate.  I always look to that scene because it shows the basics of how friendship works.  Loyal.  Brutal.  Loving.

I popped in SATC over the holidays because it’s always good for a good laugh, a wistful cry, and a healthy dose of friendship.  As the year neared its end, I put on Sex and the City, the Movie.  One.  Not Two.  Never Ever watch Two.  Worst. Movie. Ever.  I try to delete it from my mind as it tends to tar my memory of my 4 favorite NY gals.

As I watched the movie, I thought about my own year.  Such incredible highs, such devastating lows.  From running my first 5K in June, to being in a wheelchair in August.  From working on key national strategic projects at work, to giving all of my hard work to others to manage.  From partying with lots of tequila in Vegas, to wondering if I would ever walk again just a few days after my trip.

I ended a very loud, hectic, intense year in a very quiet, reflective way.  The end of the year is always a time to sit back and see what you have done.  As Oprah says, “Live your best life.”  Have I?

I spent the first two weeks of this year in quiet retrospection. I haven’t written because my thoughts have been all over the place.  I wanted to send out my list of resolutions on January 1, but my ideas were scattered, inconsistent, and not well planned.

I read somewhere that in order to keep your resolutions, you should keep them to yourself.  However, I want to put them out there, as I feel that it will help keep me motivated during this upcoming year.  Since I count on all of you cheering me on, I will need extra help in 2012 cheering me on through this.

So, what are My goals for 2012?

  1. Blog.  I will continue to blog.  As I have found by talking to people recovering from GBS, or any other disability, writing has helped me, and helped them.  I know that my healing has just begun- I have a long way to go.  My goal in 2012?  Write Write Write!
  2. Lithe- My exercise regimen used to consist of going to the Lithe Method, a cardio-cheer-sculpting workout, every morning.  However, since my diagnosis, my exercise regimen consists of 2 miles on the treadmill, lots of stairs, and some upper body work.  At my last doctor’s appointment, he found my weakness is still my hip abductors, hip adductors and my quadriceps.  Hence, my walking like a weeble-wobble.  “Weebles wobble, but they don’t fall down, right??”  My hope is that by getting back to Lithe, I can strengthen these, and in time, Weeble-wobbling will be a thing of the past!  My Goal for 2012?  Lithe Again!
  3. Walk, Unassisted- I’m close.  And then somedays, I feel light-years away from it.  While I love my stylish canes, I’m tired of using them.  So,I hope to walk, unassisted, by the end of January.  So, when that day happens, I’ll be cutting the very fashionable Fall Risk bracelet off my wrist.  My Goal for 2012? Walk, all by myself!
  4. Travel- I used to travel a bit before I got sick.  I travel for my job.  I travel for fun.  In and out of airports and train stations like the independent woman who I was.  I have a big trip coming up in February, I’m excited to get my wings back.  I’ll be in London and Africa, and I can’t wait to share my experiences with you when I come home.  My goal for 2012 is to take a personal trip!
  5. Work-  Full Time. Working full-time used to consist of longer than the required 8 hours a day, plus work at night to catchup on emails that came through during the day.  At this point, I’m only part-time.  And mostly working from home.  I’m ramping up, but with the intense fatigue, I’m ramping up slowly.  My goal for 2012?  Earn the faith and loyalty of CBIZ by going back to Work Full Time, and Kicking Ass!
  6. Party- Yes.  That’s right.  I need to party.  Especially with at my GBS diagnosis anniversary- August 11, 2012.  Goal for 2012-  Party.
  7. Patience- I have always been a moderately patient person.  However, with my diagnosis and slow-as-molasses recovery, my patience has worn thin. I find myself more short-tempered, more frustrated, and more annoyed than I’ve ever been.  I snap at people more and my fuse lights more quickly.  My Goal for 2012?  Count to 10.  Take a Deep Breath.  Repeat.
  8. Run a Race-  This is my most ambitious goal.  I wasn’t a runner before GBS, and I’m not sure what makes me think I can be a running with GBS?  However, I’ve heard amazing recovery stories.  I want one of my own.  This will be a year-end goal.  It will be a short one, but gosh, crossing a finish line with everything that I’ve been through will  be awesome.   Goal for 2012- Run!  Run Like the Wind!. 

As I look forward to 2012, I know that the future is bright ahead of me.  My recovery is what I make of it.  I will continue to pull myself out of bed, shake my legs awake, and put on my smile to start each day.  I haven’t written in a few weeks, and I must say, it’s good to be back.

I leave you with my favorite rendition of the classic New Year’s Song, Auld Lang Syne from, what else?  Sex and the City.

Thank you for joining me on this journey.

Much love to a healthy 2012.


5 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by sandy on January 15, 2012 at 12:33 AM

    Susy this is one of your best. I have missed your writings and glad your back.


  2. Posted by Jill Whitten Rice on January 14, 2012 at 9:04 PM

    My husband had this in 2001 and has fully recovered. He has very few signs of this anymore. I wish you a speedy recovery.


  3. Posted by grace rowe on January 14, 2012 at 8:58 PM


    Love to run a race with you…………..check out the 5 K’s in your area and keep me posted. You and your blogs are an inspiration!!

    Healthy, happy 2012.

    Aunt Grace


  4. Posted by Jeanie Tini on January 14, 2012 at 7:16 PM

    Happy New Year!!! Good Luck with all your goals!!! I know you will succeed!!! Miss you – God Bless!! xoxo

    Love Jeanie


  5. Great set of achievable goals! Would love to pace you in a race. Go get em!


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